Finally, I had proper terrain tires on my electric mountain bike! My first ride in my Spanish “backyard” was wonderful. And yet, an old fear rode along with me: the fear of falling and injuring my shoulder once again. I reminded myself not to dwell on it, because whatever you give your attention to, grows.
So I just enjoyed the ride… and also the Thai massage afterwards.
The next morning, however, I woke up with a painfully stiff left arm, unable to move it. I tried some exercises and called Fadi, a remarkable osteopath in Marbella, for a treatment. His diagnosis: frozen shoulder. And with it, a sincere piece of advice: “Never let anyone touch your neck during a massage.”
The second day after his treatment brought some relief, but soon the pain came back, sharper, louder, demanding attention. Out of curiosity, I looked up “frozen shoulder” online. The description of pain intensity and especially the possible duration, months, even years, was shocking.
Immediately I told myself: That’s not going to happen to me. By the end of August, this will be gone.
The pain in my shoulder was a gateway inward
I asked myself to reveal what lay hidden behind this pain. When was the first time I had experienced something like this?
I was taken back to 1964. I was a miner, running for my life as the shaft I worked in was collapsing.
On my way up, through an ever-narrowing tunnel, my left shoulder got stuck. I couldn’t move forward or backward. Bertus, a colleague from my village, was the last behind me. His large body left no space to pass. Instead of helping, he pushed me deeper into the rock, forcing his way to freedom. Leaving me behind, shattered by pain and stripped of my trust in human compassion.
I fought for my life. Gasping for air, struggling, surrendering… and eventually, liberation.
Whether this memory is “real” or not doesn’t matter. The energy of it lived inside me, stored in my cellular memory. The beauty is: such heavy, low-vibration experiences can be transmuted into light, into higher frequency.
As a transformational coach, this is the work I do every day: transforming traumas, blocks, and limiting beliefs so that life can flow again. Peeling away the layers of conditioning, to come closer to the authentic self.
Through my own (self)transformation, I’ve alchemized fears of death, small spaces, darkness, abandonment, suffocation, and falling, transforming them into love, sending them back to the Source. And then filling the newly created space with freedom, surrender, trust, safety, compassion, gratitude, courage, strength, manifestation power, expansion, and love.
These words, each carrying a high vibration, reset my entire system, down to my cells. The trauma of being stuck in the mine is no longer part of me. It has released space, literally and figuratively.
And this morning, when I woke up? The pain was almost gone. My arm, a little stiff and unsteady. But filled with relief, gratitude, and a beautiful reminder of my own self-healing power.
Disclaimer: This is my personal experience. If it resonates with you, perhaps it can be something for you too. If you prefer medication, that’s also fine. It’s your choice. Choose from your heart, not from fear.
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